Alyssa Johnson

About Alyssa Johnson

I grew up as a peacekeeper. I absolutely hated conflict and did everything I could to keep the peace, even if it meant I was absolutely miserable inside. I adjusted my personality and volume depending on who I was around, forming myself into someone I thought they might like. If someone was treating me poorly, I hated conflict so much that I just took it without complaint. This carried over into every area of my life - my friendships, my career, even my marriage. I became what I like to call an exploding doormat, where I let everyone walk over me and built up resentment to the point where I exploded, and no one knew where it came from because I was always so calm and never brought up any concerns.

But then, I started an unconscious transformation that spanned many years, with slow realization after slow realization. First I quit my job where I was being verbally abused by my boss, and found another one that was a fantastic fit and I was treated amazingly. Then, after recognizing that my marriage had come to an end (and realizing we were both at fault), I left and began the slow journey to finding my real, authentic self. The real me, not the public persona I’d built up to please and impress other people.

Then, 2020 happened. At first, I thought it was the worst thing in the world, but after some deep diving and being guided by spirit, I realized what a tremendous opportunity a year of forced alone-ness was. I started finding out who I was on a level I hadn’t even dreamed of. Not only that, but I actually started loving who I really was, which I’d never experienced before.

I studied many energy and spiritual healing modalities and started understanding that the level of people-pleasing and codependency I had experienced my whole life was a result of blocks and karma I was carrying with me from previous lifetimes, as well as from me fighting my unique soul profile. Once I cleared these things, my transformation started and continues to happen at an incredibly rapid pace. I now know myself on a deep level, I actually truly love myself, and for the first time in my life, I’m setting healthy boundaries and speaking my truth. I finally love the body I am in, after decades of being stuck in diet culture. This is what I want for everyone who identifies as female!